My Simple, Happy, Beautiful Life

Do I really? Okay, recently I have developed this really negative attitude about dating. I have become apathetic. I just get so used to my routine of doing what I do and I don't want to break it. I do have a social life. I do talk to guys. I am not a bitter person to love. If other people are in love, then I am happy for them. I don't get jealous of others. I don't know what my state of dating is. I don't think that apathetic is the correct word. You know how you have this guy that you like or have a crush on in your head when you are not dating someone? I don't have anyone or anything. The good thing is that I am open. I hold high expectations and am willing to date. I am not opposed to dating. I would welcome if there was a date. But so far, I haven't met anyone that I like or want to date. Is it wrong to not like anyone? I feel like people are shocked to hear that I don't like anyone. I just haven't met anyone that I like. Are my expectations too

Men are great. There are problems with men now though. Men don't take responsibility as much. Some men are awesome and take responsibility for issues but this post isn't for you men though. I agree with what the church leaders are saying about taking responsibility and rising up to your title. Just because tv shows men as lazy and ignorant, dosen't mean that you have a right to act that way. Most tv shows men on the couch drunk  ignoring the needs of their children and their wifes. They usually watch sports and complain all day. Is that what you want to be one day? In my job, I see a lot of families with issues. Both males and females are to blame for problems within families, but too many males aren't rising up. They ignore their family needs and are addicted to pornography, drugs or the internet. They play the blaming game saying that their wife didn't fulfill their needs so it lead them into pornography. I understand that the wife's behavior influences th

I want to travel! I figured that I am young and this is the prime time of my life to go travel the world after I graduate. This isn't my final plan, but I am highly considering it. I am looking for a a paid teaching english program or volunteer program. I want to find a program, that you earn money but I know it is hard. I want to go to South America, Africa or Europe. I am willing to go Japan or China but it has never appealed to me. I am hoping that this experience will help me broaden my perspective, make me uncomfortable, make me grow, find ways to serve people, and help me become more competitive for grad school. Yes, I did say make me uncomfortable. I have found that the best experiences are the ones that make me feel uncomfortable. I find that I grow less when I am in my comfort zone. I am afraid that Provo will become my comfort zone so maybe I need to travel somewhere to get out of my comfort zone. The purpose of this blog was to ask if anyone knows great traveling o

I like to go volunteer at this family clinic in Provo. Well it is a requirement, but I do like to go. I play with kids in the waiting room and keep them busy to make the waiting room experience a little more enjoyable. Sometimes, I come home and question if my time spent is worth it. Today was not one of those days. There was this mother with four young boys on the phone. I was trying not to judge the mom, but the kids were running around all over the place. I started playing lego's with the children and they talked to me about their airplane lego toy they made. I then played "Don't break the ice" for a hour and a half with these kids. We would play for 2 minutes and then set it up and repeat the whole thing again. I don't feel like I was a therapist today, but I saw the mom's anxiety decrease as she was able to relax a little more. It was fun playing with the kids. I learned all about kindergarten, how big crayons are really weird, how fun it is hit thing

Being in a room full of children peeing on couchs, peeing on grass, changing diapers, screaming, crying and hitting each other. No desire for children right now.

I walked to work dreading watching this really boring couple. For my work, I changed watching a different type of therapeutic technique that increases attachment. The couple really struggled opening up, well I guess the husband did. He definitely looks tough just in how he interacts with others and his physical appearance. The therapist had to keep asking him to respond to his wife with more than one word. It was really annoying watching the wife want to work on her marriage and the husband not seeming to care at all.  But, I learned something tonight. There is no room to judge because you never know what is happening inside of the person. This husband had some insecurities that he was too afraid to reveal. He lived his life in a rock hard shell that was un-crackable. The therapist was becoming annoyed as the wife kept begging for her husband to give her more information. It seemed like the couple was not making any progression after a lot of hard emotional work.  Then the mirac

That is what I have discovered in my life. I feel like when we seek love, it will come but it will be difficult. Love will come in unexpected way and time. I talked to two friends today and they were both not looking to date at all this semester. They fell for a guy. They both told me the same thing, " I am surprised because I didn't plan for it to happen". I have talked to numerous engaged and married couples who have said the same thing. So, you want love? Don't expect it. Well, maybe it dosen't work that easily. I was thinking about this concept that people call love today. I have been in love before. I look forward to being in love once again. I am tired of always thinking about me, myself and I. I want to share my love with another person. The thing is love will come in a unexpected way and I am ready to embrace that. I am extremely busy these days so I am not looking for a handsome fella' to come my way soon. I don't expect for my eternal honey bun