My Simple, Happy, Beautiful Life

I had a really fun weekend and I realized I did a lot of the things I loved. I danced in the car, ate yummy food, ran in the mornings, went swinging in the park by myself, played wii with my brothers, slept in, had a game night, made pie shakes, went shopping at Nordstroms, spent time with my dog, went to a wedding and saw the happiest couple, caught up with old friends, got my hair done by my mom and niece in law, played the piano, and spent time with my family. All of these things I love to do but I don't always get the opportunity to do! I like being home but I look forward to seeing my roommates and being back in my apartment. I can't wait to have my two and one third with Evan and Hanna Dunn. I can't wait to talk to my grandpa and see how his carrots are growing. I dread studying for my motion and perception exam for this week. But in July, I will come home again and go camping and go to concerts and hang out with my friends...with no homework! :) Now, that is happines

Want to hear one my of my new favorite scriptures? Two sundays ago, I payed attention to every talk and each one answered a prayer. Funny how that happens when you are ready, things will pop out when you need to hear them. I tend to worry a lot about my future. Not as much lately, I have changed my perspective a lot. I used to be concerned with doing the right thing so much that it would overwhelm my thinking process. I was so worried about making decisions, that I would just never make them. I realized that this was ineffecient and I wasn't living my life to the fullest. This required Simplification in my life! It is hard to simplify in our lifes. We rarely take time to just ponder and think about the things that matter most. We don't really prioritize the things that need to be done. I think I have said this before, but it is still as true as when I first said it! We live in a life with instant gratification. We require answers immediately. We require happiness right after

My piano teacher showed me these pictures when I was learning Debussy. She taught me about impressionism and the "dream like state". This is what I think is beautiful. I love the style of music. I love the chords in the music. The impressionistic is based on your interpretation. You create your own meaning. My favorite songs are Arabesque and Clair De Lune. I love the dresses from Gone with the Wind. Scarlett has the best dresses. Confession: I can watch this show just to look at the dresses. I love lace dresses. I love weddings. I love lace wedding dresses. I love the simplicity and elegance that comes with lace. I love pearls. They are gorgeous. I can wear them with any outfit. I can wear them anyday. I can wear them all day. Pink or white, dosen't matter. White pearls are heavenly to me. I have many other favorite things I can name. These are all feminine things but I still love other things that aren't feminine either.

I have been thinking about how it can be hard to say no to people. I am a people pleaser so I like to make others happy with my actions. This can be a good and bad thing. I hate when people are mad at me. Can't they just forgive me and we can be friends? But I think it is even harder than saying no to other people is saying no to yourself. Desire is a strong thing. It can be stronger than logic at times. You make a plan and goal to accomplish something. And then the strongest desire comes and takes over that good intentioned goal. Yes, this happens to me all the time. I really do want to keep a budget. I really do want to get my homework done and get good grades. I want to be kind to everyone. I want to eat healthy and exercise daily. These are my good intentions. What prevents me from accomplishing my goals? My desires. I love chocolate chip cookie dough. I love sleeping in. I love to spend money. I love to socialize. These desires can overcome me when I am trying to reach my goal

I need some. My birthday is this friday. I don't want to do homework. It is summer. I want to eat my otter pop's.  I want to go to Rigby Lake. I want to have a water fight. I want to enjoy my summer. I never get this way in Fall because It is cold and I don't mind being in the library. I like my classes but putting the effort is hard. I think it is hard to create a balance. Social life, homework or sleep. We can have two of those options. Normally my life is homework and sleep. My social life was always deprived. Now socializing has reached a top priority. I like people more than doing my homework. I need to change. Or just focus more on homework. Any suggestions? Last spring I was really good with my homework. Maybe my priorities have changed since then. My concentration is shot. My interest is else where. I like to just relax and have fun. I want to play instead of work. And I hear all my friends are just having fun and relaxing since school is out and I am studying i

I watched the Justin Bieber dvd last night with my roommate. It made me kinda sad. I used to be one of those fanatic fans for NSYNC with my mom with me singing the words of every NSYNC song at the concert. I remember waking up finding out I had NSYNC tickets and thinking to myself I was the luckiest girl in the world. I bought a new sparkly blue shirt from Nordstroms and went with my friend Kimmie. It made me think of my happy childhood when I could run with tutu's, climb cherry trees, play barbie's and sit on my dad's lap. Justin Bieber had this childhood but his teenage years will be full of touring on a bus with his managers. My teenage years were full of school work, piano, friends, guys, family bonding time, and time with my favorite dog Butch. I would never take these years back. My favorite memories are on my 16th birthday with getting roses and a dating 8 ball. I remember taking goofy pictures with my friends and driving to Homecoming with my best friend Amanda. I

Me and my roommates saw a storm coming so what do you do? Go take a pink photoshoot with high heels and your favorite pink umbrella. Want to see some pictures? Of course you do! We had a lot of fun. It was good roommate bonding time on a sunday afternoon! Also, we were just watching people through the window. People are fun to watch. They were trying to skateboard and rollerboard while dodging cars as they drove through the parking lot. They were flirting. They were being goofy. They were on their phones a lot. They were fascinating to watch. Yes, I am a people watcher. I enjoy it very much. I have a hard time getting my homework done with these girls in my apartment. We have fun distracting each other. Well, my homework break is officially over, but next sunday go do something crazy like having a pink photoshoot!

This a fun game that my cousin introduced to me. I had a game night at my apartment last Friday where we played it. You choose an adverb when someone is out of the room. The person comes back in the room and creates a scenario where you act it out with the adverb. They try to guess the adverb. So the adverb was awkwardly. A perfect scenario for me and my cousin who just got back from his mission. We were on a double date and I was more interested in him than he was in me. So I kept complementing him and trying to touch his hair and he would just fidget away from me. It was super awkward and so funny. We were laughing all night about that one part. My favorite part of the night was when he pretended to get a phone and call and the other guy on the double date said..."he got a phone call". Yep. We were silly. But we can be silly on a Friday night after a long week of studying. And after receiving a good grade on my first Sensation and Perception exam? If you are looking for

I have with this song. I listen to it constantly. It just makes me happy. I love her voice. I love the guitar. It is a very simple song. I like the theme of the song. It makes me think of my childhood dreams. I still carry them with me because they are a a part of me. I still wish I could be a professional ice skater. I still want to perform in the Nutcracker, even though I was never good. It makes me think of all the happy things in my life.  My dreams of playing beautiful Debussy songs to a crowd who would give me a standing ovation are still with me. I developed a realism saying I could do these if I put the time and work into my dream. But I don't. So I just carry these dreams within me.

In my Sensation and Perception class, I am learning about the transduction of light. As practice for a essay on my exam, I am going to tell you all how transduction works. I could be wrong. Last night I studied with my intelligent roommate who is also t!aking the class and discovered that I was learning it wrong! You don't have to read this unless you want to.  We first must understand how the photo receptors work in the dark. In the dark, the retinal in the opsin is bent. Because the retinal is bent, the g protein is not activated. The emzyme is producing cGMP which allows the sodium channel to be open. It is disinhibited, which means that it is allowing the nuerotransmitters to send inhibitory signals to the bipolar cell. The light enters into the retinal and isomerization will occur when the retinal straightens out. It will straighten out because the two chlorides on the retina don't want to be near each other when the light touches it. The straightening of the retinal caus

As we all know it was mother's day yesterday. I would like to dedicate this song to my mom. She is very supportive in my ideas. She lets me make my own decisions. She has seen me cry many times. I remember many times in High School coming home and feeling left out. She always would find a way to cheer me up with cookies, shopping, music, or hugs. She taught me how to be strong, how to love to learn, to work hard, and to laugh at my dad's goofy jokes. She has a strong testimony and teaches me what priorities I need to put first. She loves to serve others. She absolutely loves her seminary kids. They are her adopted kids. My friends are her adopted kids. Every time my friends come over, she loves to join in our conversation and talk to us. She loves to entertain others with games, food, and conversation. She is intelligent. I remember her reading a lot when I was younger. I remember going to the library and getting books. She loves learning about all subjects. She is proactive.

Here is my question for the day. I know I already posted today but two posts in one day isn't a horrible thing. Do women love longest? Anne Elliot said it in Persuasion to Captain Wentworth's friend. I just love Jane Austen. She has a way of connecting with every generation. In Persuasion, Anne Elliot is afraid that Captain Wentworth will never love her again. She refused his proposal but after several years she is still in love with him. In the end, the love is triumphant and Anne finds her long time forgotten love. This love story is very different than the other stories. I was thinking about Anne Elliot. She has the strongest character. She refused Captain Wentworth at a young age because he was a low rank in the Army and her family disapproved of the relationship. I recall reading somewhere that Jane Austen related most to Anne Elliot. The quiet yet determined character. My favorite character is Emma. Emma is so human. She makes judgment mistakes all the time. She tries t

This week I have learned that I am brave. I don't feel brave. I feel weak sometimes. I have these weaknesses that I feel like control me sometimes. I try to be strong. I try to appear like I am strong. The weird thing is when you pretend you are strong, then you become strong. I had a project where I had to present who I am. I thought of different experiences that show my bravery and It just opened my eyes. When I was younger, I broke my arm. I fell asleep in the car with my broken arm on the hour or so car ride to the hospital. It was amazing that I could fall asleep while having so much pain. I didn't cry when having shots and getting my cast because my family was there. I knew I was safe with having my parents there to support me. The doctor said I was the bravest girl in that hospital. When I got my root canal done when I was younger, I smiled through the process. I remember when they were putting a shot in my nerve, I wanted to cry but I stayed strong.I guess you could s

I am taking Sensation and Perception. It is a really hard but interesting class. Recently, we learned about how our world is full of stimulus that our body takes in to change the stimulus into a electrical signal. The body can then read the electrical signal and develop a perception of the signal. What comes into the process is our knowledge of the world. The knowledge we currently have will change the stimulus to what we want it to be. Our world is in our own blurry eyes. It is not a clear image of what the world truly is. I like to think I have good judgments. My judgments and perceptions can be false because I take in what is around me and change it. There is nothing wrong with this. What if we saw the world as it truly was? We might not like it. We might not like to see all the pain and heartache that exists. We might not want to see the dishonesty, lack of trust, and theft that occurs. I am not saying that the world is a awful place. I think it can be a wonderful place. It all dep

I had a good funny weekend getting to know my rommates. I like my roommates this semester a lot. We are all different, but the differences bring us together. So my roommate in my room is really funny. She thinks that I am funny. She will laugh at my jokes when  I don't think that I am funny. Anyways, we met our home teachers the other night when they came over to bring us chocolate chip cookies which was nice of them. They announced to her that they were our home teachers and her response shocked them . She simply stated, "Congratulations!". It was just so funny, we all started laughing hysterically because that  was her natural response. Anyways, that is my funny moment of the week.