My Simple, Happy, Beautiful Life

I have been thinking a lot about the word "beautiful". We all have our own definition which may or may not be correct. I don't know if we can have objective definition of beautiful because everyone's definition is so subjective. What do we find attractive? What is beautiful in the world? What makes a object or person beautiful? I think there is beauty all over the world. There is beauty on earth. I love being outdoors because I see beauty all around me. I think that hiking and being outdoors has been great for me because It is a natural way to relieve my worries. I look at the world around me and think if God made these wonderful things for me to enjoy, he must love me. I am constantly amazed at the beauty in the earth and as well my friends and family. I know this may sound strange. I know so many beautiful people. My definition of beautiful people has changed completely. I used to think beautiful people were tan, athletic, pretty eyes and toned muscles (yes, I a...

Yes, you heard it! It was my on of my friend's 21st birthday. As a mormon, what do you do for a 21st birthday? You can drink legally. But drinking is against our standards. So, we get mocktails (non acoholic drinks). We do sprite shots and act like we are drunk. I am not going to post any pictures from that night because lets just say it is embarrasing. Extremely. I can just say that I love this summer. My summer is full of fun times with friends, sunshine, water, swimming, crazy events (like post noting my friends car), and random spontaneous things. I love Spring and Summer in Provo just because of all the fun opportunities! Yet, the same time I feel like I am back in High School. I think part of it is because I have less responsibility and I can enjoy my nights with friends. I feel carefree. I think that is what summer is all about carefree nights. Well, speaking of carefree, it is bedtime.

Someday will happen when I work and reach my goals. Until then, why fret? Seriously, fretting only brings tears and fears alive. I am tired of worrying about my future.  New philosophy: While waiting, work hard and enjoy life. Done. 

I had the most interesting experience today. I usually don't get too emotionally involved while coding therapy sessions until today. Most of the times, I am somewhat distracted by something else. This wife intrigued me though. She was extremely emotional. She lost her trust completely because her spouse had a pornography addiction and lied about it for 18 years. Can you believe it 18 years? That is utterly crazy. Completely crazy. He had affairs on her and broke the covenants they made. I have never seen someone sob as much as she did. I have seen many crying girls but this scene was utterly heartbreaking. I didn't know how to react. I wanted to hug her. I wanted to tell her everything would be alright. I wanted to tell her that nothing was wrong with her, it was just that he used his agency differently than she did. I left that therapy session so heartbroken for the client. I had never met her personally, but just her situation was so heartbreaking for me. I came home and ha...

I just had my ward boating/camping trip.  It was so much fun! Let me just say that I love my ward. I have never been in such a friendly/social/caring/fun/welcoming/spirtual ward as this one. I first moved in January and everyone was so friendly towards me. They all welcomed me and I instantly made new friends. Over summer, people are more friendly and there are social activities happening all the time. Recently, we just had our ward boating trip where I had a blast. I slept in a two person tent with my best friend. It was so cute and really hot because I was in a 0 degree sleeping bag. We watched Megamind on a inflatable flat screen on Thursday night. Friday, we swam, tubed, boated, ate tequila steak, made homemade ice cream and had our variety show. We ate ice cream out of these tin cans, where everyone shared their germs. Not only did we share our life experiences together, we shared each other's germs. I felt so sick after that night and so sore. I tried wakeboarding for the f...

If you have ever seen 500 Days of Summer, you will recognize this card, but my friend said that last night when we were looking at pictures. I am so grateful that I stayed in Provo. Everytime I say this my mom is hurt, and I understand. I just love my friends in Provo. Every night we never know what we are going to do. We just end up being together (except Suzy is gone now). I just feel like we are like the Sisters of the Traveling Pants. We are different than each other, different plans for our future. Suzy is going on her mission to Brazil. Hanna will go back to Idaho for BYUI. Me and Carissa will stay here at BYU. I have never had this strong a friendship where we are literally are inseparable. It has been really fun because we just learn from each other and laugh while talking pictures of us touching each others butts. It is safe to say that we aren't afraid of touching each others butts and holding each other's hands. It is a best friend kind of thing, I guess. I am j...

"I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the community and as long as I live, it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can."-George Bernard Shaw Lately, I have been thinking about our moral responsibility as community members. Here is one situation that just shocked me today at the library. This girl looks distressed. It is finals week. She has a big project in her hands that she drops. I notice it and ask her how I can help her. She told me that I couldn't really help much because the portfolio requires a lot of organization that only she knew. Her final was due soon and she had to re-organize everything quickly. I didn't know what to do but give her some encouragement because only she knew the organization. The sad part about this situation is the fact that nobody cared in the library. Seriously? Everyone was stuck on their computers, working on their individual projects or talking to their friends. It really frustrated me as I was walking home about how peopl...

I went white water rafting in Vernal Utah over the last weekend. I have never been white water rafting so It was definitely something new! It was only class II and class III. If you don't know what class levels are, then I will try to explain quickly. Class level is the difficulty of the water that you are navigating. Class II means that you can just float down it. Class III requires some navigation and then I don't know the difference between class III and IV and V. But, It was a beautiful canyon where there were indian carvings in the rock. It was located in Dinosaur National Park. The park was really fun to travel in. There was this cabin of a women who had been divorced 5 times, so she lived alone farming the land around her. She lived there until her death in a small cabin with only carpet. But it was in a pretty area, so I wouldn't living where she lived (maybe not alone though). There were dinosaur fossils, which were fun to look at. I would probably recommend this p...

I am thankful for doing dishes, because it means that I ate a meal and had a plate to eat the food on.  I am thankful for heart break, because that means I have a heart.  I am thankful for alarm clocks, because when I hear them in the morning that means I am alive.  I am thankful for Mr. Collins, because that means that love exists for other people.  I am thankful for sickness, because that means my body is fighting to be healthy.  I am thankful for when my pants don't fit, because that means I am eating enough food and won't die of starvation.  I am thankful for failure, because it gives me a opportunity for growth.  I am thankful for homework, because it means I have the opportunity to get a education and learn in school.  I am thankful for break ups, because that means I had love.  I am thankful for torn clothes, because that means I had clothes on my back.  I am thankful for things I don't want, so I can learn all ...

This is what I tell myself every morning when I think of my work and school responsibilities. I get tired of having the same schedule for as long as I have had. This summer I have had times to be social and have fun but I am still restrained by stats homework and research. I can't complain because I am not taking organic chemistry. I would have no social life If I was taking that class. But seriously, I NEED a break. I have been in school for too long and I will be go crazy If I go any longer. Good thing we only have finals left and then I am done until the end of August. And then one year until my undergrad and then grad school. I love school and learning but where is my break? I need one. Soon. Please? I will love you forever. I just want to hike, eat, sleep, run, watch movies, get wet at the water park, leap in meadows, catch butterflies, go on slip and slides, got to concerts and dance this summer. Make it happen blogger.