Adjustments in my Life

I have had mixed emotions today. Everything is changing around me. I am changing. I am going new places in my life, I am traveling to new places.It is a very exciting time in my life. Nothing is permanent. The people I meet will be temporary in my life. My life is packed in boxes in Rexburg. My life is old clothes in Elk Grove. My life is thinking ahead of what my plans are for the next semester. My life is constantly changing. The one thing constant is the fact that the people in it are constantly coming and going. I have just realized that everything will change from this point in my life.

I won't be home until August this year. I will be in Florida and then Idaho for the spring semester. Elk Grove doesn't have much to offer me anymore. I went to my singles ward today and It just felt weird. All the younger single adults were leaving, so the ward is going to be tiny. I don't hang out with my friends from High School anymore. My friends don't live in Elk Grove anymore. They live all over the world. I guess this is normal once you move away from home. Your life is no longer back home, but the place you go to school. I think I am just realizing the truth of this in my life. Every time I come home, it will be different. I miss my independence, my roommates, my apartment, and just being in school. I have only been home for not even two weeks, and I miss having that independence. I do love my family but I love being away from home.

I just had this mental breakdown today. Crying is a good emotional outlet, I cried and then I was over it. I reflected on what was really causing this breakdown. Change. It is a good change, I am changing. I want different things in life. I want to progress and be challenged. In order to be challenged, I need to be away from home and be independent. My life is no longer in Elk Grove. I have been born and raised there. But now it is time to move on officially and create my life in other places. Establish my name in Disneyworld and Rexburg! I am ready for it!

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